My Family

Well... my little time off the island is over and I'm back with Kasala and Terina in our little apartment. I loved the time that I spent at home and I loved being with my family again. When Jake got married it gave our whole family a chance to get together. Grant it, Phebe and the girls were with her family and they were very much missed. But I had a chance to be with all of my brothers. I don't remember the last time we were all actually together. Probably Jared's wedding 2 years ago. Each time one of my brothers has gotten married I seem to have a big problem with something or someone and it effects my whole mood and attitude about the wedding. I don't know if that's actually how I feel or if it's just a mask for me losing a brother. I love my brothers more than anything. Growing up I would do anything for them, whatever they asked and sometimes I did things they didn't ask me to do. I wanted to make them happy and to take care of them. Then, one by one they started to get married. Anthony then Jeff, then Jared and now Jake. They were all growing up and starting their own lives. My biggest fear is that as we all grow up and have our own lives is that we'll start to forget about each other or not be as close. I know I'm not close with all of my brothers and that is something that I really want. I want to have a relationship with my nieces and nephews. I want them to come stay at my house in the summers and on breaks. I want to have dinners with my brothers and their families, to go on road trips and camp outs with them. I want to have a close and tight family so that we can lean on each other when we need and want to... and not just when we have to. I love my family with all my heart. I love my parents. They do so much for all of us still. They are loving, patient and give the best advice. I love my dad for always taking the time to make sure I'm happy and for just talking to me about life. My mom is my best friend and I wouldn't be the mother I am without her advice and guidance. My brothers are the best! I love them no matter how mean they are to me :) My sister are even better...1 for marring my brothers and 2 for putting up with them and making them better people. As for MY family....my husband is the best. He's patient and loving and we've learned so much in the past couple years. I'm lucky to be stuck with him forever and ever. Terina brings so much joy into our home and she's teaching me how to be a better person. I can't wait until she has little brothers and sisters. She is the most loving and happy 3 year old I know and I love her more and more every day. I'm so lucky to have the family that I have.... I guess all I need is 1 more sister and a bunch of nieces and nephews